This is how I feel after my second week of class. It is basically a feeling of exhaustion not necessarily from classes, but just the week in general. Working at the computer lab also wears me out quickly. Staring at these monitors can just be so draining. Computers really are evil; they just happen to do some really neat stuff for us.
So I am thinking about what I want to do this weekend. The weather is beautiful. It has been a little cool which gives one the impression that winter is around the corner. That means I should get in a good bike ride and camping trip before it is too late. I will probably spend all of my weekend indoors, though.
Another cause for the blah thing is the fact that Brica and I are not communicating well. She is supposed to come live with Gene and I starting next week. I haven't really been calling her a lot because I am busy and I knew that I could see her next week. Anyway, now she is considering not coming to Illinois at all. She thinks that she may have found a good job in Oregon. If that is the case, she will stay there for the next year and then go off to Guatemala. Of course, this is disappointing to me, but I don't really know what I want. Sure it would be nice to live together, but we fight sometimes too. It would be good experience, I am sure. I don't know if we would ever get married though.
That is the big hang-up with my parents. Not only is it horrible to live with someone before marriage, but having no intention of getting married makes things even worse. I really don't see the point of the marriage thing anyway, but I am too tired now to really express myself clearly. Suffice it to say that I am worn out. I think I will call some of my Japanese friends this weekend to see if someone can cheer me up.
I think all people are really lonely inside, but just don't admit it.