Having a really bad day today. All time low. We're talking Black Wednesday here. First of all, the ear problems persist. The nurse cleaned out my ear, but then it got infected somehow. I had to go back to the doctor and get some different drops to combat this problem. That means I still have cotton in my ear and am still experience what it is like to be partially deaf. It is a handicap.
I am generally tired from life in general. Nothing is working here at the computer lab again. I cannot make many changes to software changes and whatnot, so I am stuck just telling people that this and that will be fixed soon. It is a pain in the butt, but I guess that is what they pay me to do.
The top story of the day is definitely the old girlfriend. I don't mean old girlfriend in the since of ex-girlfriend. As far as I knew, Brica and I have been dating for a couple years now. The only problem is that we have not seen each other in about five months. She was supposed to come and live with me starting Friday, so I thought our distance problems were finally solved.
Then she starts thinking about our relationship. Then she thinks about jobs in Oregon, then there is a guy in Oregon. Anyway, the short version of the story is that our relationship may be over and she is not going to come live with me this year. This may be a good thing for us over the long run, but I am really hurting right now.
Brica just has really bad timing on these things. We do have a lot of arguments, but we have only really broken up one time. I don't like the break-up/get together thing because it just seems immature to me. Anyway, the other time she did break up with me was when we had these plans to go backpacking in the Smokey Mountains over spring break. One day before she freaks out about our relationship and decides that I can't go camping with her. She just ruined all of my plans and expectations.
I am trying to type this while I am working at a very busy computer lab, so I just lost my train of thought.
Anyway, so I just want to go home and curl up in my big empty bed, but that really wouldn't make me feel better. You know how when you are depressed you can't see any way out, but in the end things really aren't that bad... Well, I guess I will survive. I just feel so bad about all of the time and effort that we invested in this relationship. We have a lot of things in common. A lot of history. Now it is all gone.
So that is why I am having a bad day. Things will get better. Some time.